OT..is it really worth it??

It has been a tiring and busy week...so far i have done OT twice last week and another one yesterday and today i'm suppose to celebrate my grandma birthday but i was SO tired,like super duper tired till i couldn't move my body that i missed it...i remembered saying no when my sis ask me to wake up as i was too tired. I remembered my mom opening the door and closing it back without asking whether i wanted to go to my grandma house or not but as i was still very very tired,i felt right back to sleep. In the end,my whole family left without me :( when i woke up which is round 6 something ,i realize that the whole house was quiet and the family car was not in the porch..so i quickly called my dad. When he picked up the phone, i heard them singing "happy birthday". I was real upset and immediately felt like crying...how can i miss such an important event?? i even change shift with my senior (i'm supposed to be evening today) when i know we were going to celebrate her birthday not to mention giving out christmas presents to everyone.(fyi,its a tradition every year we will give christmas present to everyone on my grandma birthday) This is the 1st time i'm not celebrating it with everyone T.T
i'm not doing anymore OT nxt week..i'm scared >.<


Lesson learnt :
Don't simply say yes when someone ask you to do OT.(fyi,i got called up at 4am in the morning yesterday by the HA just to come bck n do OT whereby i'm evening) and DO NOT EVER let the lure of money be the source of your motivation to do it...the singapore trip was what motivated me to do it as i needed to save money so i can go there next year...but seeing what i missed today,such an important event,i suddenly realized that there are some things that money cannot buy or offer...
haiz....

Boring life

Work...work..work...non stop...
and yet i need more money...

i'm the most outdated among my friends
feel lazy to catch up with them..either too tired or too busy or just plain lazy...

i dun have anyone special to love or to take care
no one miss me or is chasing after me...
i miss the feeling of falling in love or having a crush...haha...

that's all abt me for now...

HELLO PEOPLE...I'M BACK!!!!!!!!

woohoo...sooooooo long i didn't touch my blog...too busy and too lazy to upload...haha..even all my friends have been complaining why i took so long to update..anyway,the reason why i have the mood to update is because of my love for....................













ANIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!











yup...my love for it is all coming bck to me now..and i bought my very 1st anime DVD which is Fullmetal Alchemist : Brotherhood last tuesday at ampang point..haha...am currently watching it..so who cares if it cost me almost RM80..its still worth it...
i even went and googled top 10 anime of all times and fullmetal alchemist is one of them. I felt so happy when i saw it. I'm totally CRAZY OVER IT. I remembered the 1st time i watch it was when i was in form 3,that was the 1st anime series(fyi,the 1st anime is SO not nice) i couldn't really understand the storyline because the manga haven't been completed n the series DID NOT follow the manga at all..btw,my brother was the one who introduce me to this anime and i totally love it..same with him also(its one of his fave anime)..me n my siblings all watch anime but i think i'm the only one who watch the most among the 3 of us xD sigh..if only i got animax..then i can watch all i want...oh well,thats all for now..i think i'm gonna blog more abt anime(if i have the mood and time lah) so pls bear with me...actually,i'm very outdated now..i dun even noe what's the latest anime..lol...

Selamat Hari Merdeka!!!

HAPPY MERDEKA to all malaysians!!!

i'm proud to be a malaysian

thats all i can say^^

Mistakes...mistakes...

i will learn from it,i promise...so just stayed positive!!! learn from experience. Its when you fall,then only will you learn..don't give up so easily...ever since those 2 incidents happened,doubts after doubts kept floating through my mind during the last few days..am i even fit or suitable to be a nurse?? :'( last time when i was still a student,the staff nurse will take care of everything for me but now,its totally TOTALLY different. I have to be entirely responsible if anything goes wrong and it is not nice at all when seniors points out your mistakes or you get scolding by them. Thank God they are still willing to teach me. Although the mistakes i made are not life threatening but its certainly salary threatening all due to my carelessness and irresponsibility :(
But anyway,i'm gonna take all this as a challenge and also a chance to learn from it. After all,its only when u fall,then only will u grow. Yup,so i must take all this positively...i need to become better and better!!!

Working life

Its been a month since i started my working life and this month is my second month working in marternity ward...well..all i can say is working life isn't easy but thanks be to God,i managed to survived my 1st month of working life...a lot of thoughts have gone through my mind recently about what's the purpose and why they choose this ward for me as O&G is not my particular field of interest but i decided to give myself 0ne year in this specialized area to gain as much experience and know as much knowledge as i can...who knows,maybe i will be interested after 1 year :) but i still don't think i want to be a midwive..

During this 2 days, i have been tagging with CI Tang to serve medication and i ABSOLUTELY HATE serving meds...ugh!!! yet,i know that if i don't serve the patient,the patient won't get well...medicines...medicines...the colourful world of medicines..just looking at it makes me wanna puke :/ NO!!! i must learn how to love it..anyway,today CI Tang gave me her evaluation about me and said i was too overconfident which hits me quite hard..its hard to believe that someone will say that i'm overconfident as i never thought of myself as a confident person..for those who know me well,they will also know that i'm not a very confident person..and she also mention that a person's attidude is very important when it comes to nursing as we are dealing with people's lives. I did some reflection on myself after hearing her and it dawned on me that what she said might be quite true...hmm...i must really change to be a more responsible,caring nurse and if i'm not sure of anything,ASK and most importantly BE HUMBLE and not think that you know everything...remember OVERCONFIDENT KILLS!!! thats the sentence that she keep repeating..yup,so i'm gonna remember it :)

Overall,i'm thankful that i have a good CI like her..she has certainly taught me a lot of things and how to be a good and responsible nurse..Thank You Lord for sending her to teach me^^

And i received a watch from my beloved parents as my graduation present

i know its a little early to receive it but

i ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!!

Thanks Mom and Dad^^

love you!!! muacks!!!

I love it <3


and this friday i will be going to pavillion to watch movie

can't wait!!! ^^

I love skin care!!!

actually,i like skin care products even since i went into nursing..i think i got hooked when i put on my 1st mask..haha..but the only sad thing is i'm not willing to buy as i have limited budget..so everytime i walked pass by the body shop,elianto,face shop, i can only see all those products with longing but have to swallow and say no to it...it happened the same thing today while i was checking out some skin care in the face shop...this sales lady came up to me and started recommending their products and one of them was some moisturizing cream (i forgotten the name) and i like it when she put it on my hand so that i can try it,it was smooth and creamy but my heart dropped when i saw the price tag...it cost RM 99...RM99!!!! so i was a bit embarrased when i walked out of their shop without buying anything...same thing happened when i walked into Burt's Bee shop...i will love to try their lip balm one day...according to the sales lady,its one of their bestseller but the price there is also very X... so in the end?? i walked into elianto and bought their skin care instead because they were having their 6th anniversary sales although i'm not sure whether is it good or not cause i haven't try it out yet...but i'm willing to give their products a try...if it no good,i won't buy their stuff anymore...hehe...anyway,since i started working,i'm a bit more willing to spend..so i'm planning to save as much as possible so i can go shopping by the end of this year if its possible lah...haha xD

Orientation,BLS and code blue

i'm beginning to be lazy again because of blogging..sorry,ppl =p
Last week, we had our Basic Life Support and code blue workshop but i didn't do too well in it :/
will try my best again nxt time...as for this 3 days,we'll be going through general orientation...
hmm....other than that,there's nothing really much to say except that i feel out of date when i'm with my friends especially now that i'm staying at home again...haha...that's all i can say for now
p.s she came up to me and said happily :"i'm so happy.I'm in love" i feel so happy for her when i heard that :')

I love staying with my family

even though my mom do nagged sometimes especially when it comes to doing the housework...
but yesterday morning,while i was preparing to go to work,mom prepared breakfast for me in which she cooked fried rice, then after eating dad fussed around me for a while asking whether have i brought the housekeys...making sure i left nothing behind...and he came out of the house to see me off,making sure that i drove off to work before going back inside...and all these while,i felt really,really touched and warmth by their love and care..

this is the reason why i chose to stay at home because FAMILY ARE FOREVER...friends can never be there for you when you need them but family will always be there for you,taking care of you,loving you....i can proudly say i come from a picture perfect family,i have lovely parents who are still very much in love with each other,wonderful siblings although me,my bro and my sis always fight and yet can still make up and laugh doing silly things together...i have a cute dog which always stay by our side...and my bro girlfriend aka future sis in law too^^ haha..our family is expanding soon...
i feel proud that i passed my LJM cause i make my family proud...those 3 years of studying was not wasted....

but most of all, i want to thank God for giving me such a perfect family,thankful that i was not brought up in a broken home,thank Him for His grace that have uphold our family throughout all these years and it was all because of His blessings and grace that have make me who I am today...
i hope that one day when i get married,i will be be able to give all these to my children..a happy family :) to those who didn't really grew up in a perfect family like mine,its okey..just make sure that next time when you have your own family,you will made it into a happy one like mine...haha xD

Welcome to my new blog :)

this is my new blog for my next phase of life!!! haha!!! i love this blog cause i get to beautify my blog all over again :) anyway,good news to you all!! I PASSED MY LJM!!!!!!!!! YAY!! I am officially a staff nurse now!!! haha xD

i will be blogging about my workplace,personal relationship with God in this blog but the thing is i decided to keep this blog a private one cause i believe that everyone needs some privacy at the time of their life but i will also open this blog to the public whenever i feel like it...so see this blog when u see it ;) i will open my old blog for all to read...so if u wan to see all my latest updates,just stay glued to this blog...sorry lah if the blog is closed if its closed,it means there is some post i don't want you to read and i can closed it up for months and will delete those personal blogs that i don't want you guys to read so that i can open up this blog for you all to enjoy...so yea...so pls do enjoy this blog :)