A Woman Question by Lena Lathrop

                                                   Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing

Ever made by the hand above--
A woman's heart, and a woman's life
And a woman's wonderful love?

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy,
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy?

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Man-like you have questioned me;
Now stand at the bar of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.

You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart to be true as God's stars,
And as pure as heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef;
I require a far better thing.
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts;
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called home,
And a man that the maker, God,
Shall look upon as he did the first
And say, "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose will fade
From my soft, young cheek one day,
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mid the bloom of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and deep,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give all this, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot do this -- a laundress and cook
You can hire, with little to pay,
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

lol...its been such a long time

i have been reading bck all my blog post when i was a student nurse..and i realize that's its a good way to reflect back what you have done in your past life. I realized that I enjoyed writing down all my experiences and emotions into it but after I started working,i lost the enthusiam to blog..maybe i don't have any mood or lost the passion to write...sigh...come to think of it,i have been keeping diaries from the time i was 12 yrs till college life..and i nvr threw my diaries away as it was too precious to me..even my sister got to read it (although i scolded her as it was my personal thing) but now that i have become a young working adult, i seldom blog already..so today i'm gonna write down all my thoughts here..

After 2 yrs of working,i realize the passion for me in nursing is losing...i'm beginning to see a lot of situations that i don't like for ex dr's blaming us nurses for the mistakes, fussy patients, us nurses working like hell and yet nobody appreciate what we are doing, dr treating us like shit (esp this particular oncologist),ward managers who's never satisfied in what we are doing and only like to point out our mistake instead of motivating us to do better..etc..etc...no wonder i see all my colleagues work is for the sake of working because of their bond and because its their way of earning a living...as for me, i realize i also need to pull myself up as i'm starting to become one of them..i'm starting to lose patience, becoming more lazy and more unmotivated as the time goes by which is no good at all :( i really need to buck up on this area as why am i in this field and what is my purpose...last time,when i was a student,i still have the passion and now into the real working world..where have it all gone too?? UGH!!! I wish i can become like one of my friend nicole who got a reward from one her pt as her pt can see she got the passion for nursing eventhough she got such a hectic working life (even worse than mine) i need to pull up myself up on this area...

About my personal life, so far i'm having a mixed of emotions inside me and i don't know why..am very scared and doubtful to venture into another area which is the BGR area...after reading all those christian dating books like "i kiss dating goodbye" "when boy meet girl" "passion and purity" and hearing from friends about their love life, i always thought "its a good thing i don't have to go through all this yet" and suddenly BOOM!! out of the blue...smthg happens and i never felt so overwhelmed, doubtful and scared before...well,oh i can say is it take time to know a person and TIME will only tell whether are we meant for each other and whether is it God's will that we should be together...all I can say is i'm taking it slowwwww in this area ;) but i do believe that everything will happen perfectly In His Time. After all, God is the perfect matchmaker. I'm still praying about it ;)

IN HIS TIME, IN HIS TIME
HE MAKES ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL IN HIS TIME
LORD, PLEASE SHOW ME EVERYDAY
AS YOU'RE TEACHING ME YOUR WAY
AND I'LL DO JUST WHAT YOU SAY
IN YOUR TIME.

IN YOUR TIME, IN YOUR TIME
YOU MAKE ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR TIME
LORD, MY LIFE TO YOU I BRING
MAY EACH SONG I HAVE TO SING
BE TO YOU A LOVELY THING
IN YOUR TIME

BE TO YOU A LOVELY THING
IN YOUR TIME.

well, as for my friends, i'm very very blessed to have such good friends that stick throughout the good and bad times..although we are working in different departments now but we still find time to hang out and catch up with each other and also not forgetting my bestfren from high school as well, we have known each other for 10 years now and still counting

Ever since i got to know the grace gospel, blessings have be coming to my family..but i still struggling to accept the fact God wants good thing for my life and we don't have to do anything about it and we can just sit down and Rest In His Presence even though i have attended TNCC for 2 years..oh well,am still letting go of my previous teaching to embrace this new one...but I do know that my love for Jesus will never die and go away..for Jesus love me this i know for the bible tells me so :)

phew..what a long overdue post..this is all about my life :)

What is wrong with me???

Why?? WHY?? am feeling so useless right now :'(
where is my heart to serve?? where is all those motivations and inspiration to achieve my goals??
what is my goal?? last time I used to make those promises to serve the people when I was in college..now it had just wash down the drain...working life have just become another norm for me...I suddenly realize I don't have the heart anymore...all I want to do is enjoy my life...I must have become lazy and too comfortable :( UGH!!! I need to retrace all my walk with God again and remember why I wanted to do nursing in the 1st place...I realize I have work just for the sake of working...this is not good at all!!

2 risky birthday present

After buying birthday presents for 4 and the 1/2 years,i have finally come to a conclusion that there are 2 birthday present that is very risky to buy for a fren..

1. Clothes
2. Shoes

and presents that requires your friend body shape and measurement unless u knows her size really,really well..

the most safest present to buy for ur fren is

1. Accessories eg.necklace,earrings
2. Handbags or bags
3. Skin care products
4. Perfume
5. scarf

but this is only for the girls...i dun really noe wat to buy for guys though...

save!!! save!! save!!!

am now thinking of ways to save money..going to BKK in Nov (2 mths from now)..food plus shopping will be on me n my bro since we are already working (according to my parents)...and Jan will be going to Bali after 2 mth I go to thailand...must shop less n hang out less..the best way to save money is to stay at home n yet is one of the most boring thing to do which i dislike but got no choice T.T and do more OT and work on public holidays...so yea.. i decided to work on all the public holidays except deepavali n christmas...and my long awaited new handphone which i plan to buy will just have to wait till nxt yr when i get my march or april bonus :'( all i can say is work hard!! play hard!! ;p

After Singapore ,its

Thailand with my beloved family :)

then nxt year,KIV Bali trip with the girls ;)

then 2013/14 KIV Melbourne trip with esther xD

and all i can say is



I LOVE TRAVELING!!!! :D



oopsi,gotta start saving if i want to go on holidays!!!

saw this post in facebook xp

" I am not desperate for a relationship, but I do miss the feeling of having someone that can make me smile and feel appreciated.Som eone that can make calling and texting me the first and last thing they do everyday.Someone that will be there to hold me when I feel vulnerable. Someone that will look past my defects and love me for who I am.Someone that will give me butterflies in my stomach everytime we're together.Someone that I can call mine."

true :)